Ho My Goodness Here Comes Baby #2

This is a note I sent your dad on messenger.    I apologize little one for getting involved with him.   I wrote him this because I still care for him and wish him the best.    The first part is from 1 Corinthians 13.   1 Corinthians 13 New International Version (NIV) 13 If I speak in the tongues[a] of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast,[b] but do not have love, I gain nothing. 4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7...

I have totally given up on your dad and your dad s family.   So I like Kailey Isabella Patten.   Kailey- meaning princess Isabella- meaning devoted to God.  I have always adored this name.   Patten- for you sir name which both my folks and brother carry.   For short kaibelle or Kailey Belle.  Kaibella to me it 's beautiful and creative.   

Giovanna Rosalyn Patten.    Giana-Rose Giovanna Garlington Patten Giana-rose Maddox Patten

Abagail meaning.   Father's joy it s a biblical name.   Ella-Jane Ella being the short version of Eleanor meaning God is my light or candle.   Jane being the feminine version of John mean Jehovah is gracious.   So Abagail Rosslynn Patten Ella-Jane Rosslyn Patten    love this. Stella-Jane Rosslyn Sanders Stella means star Bellajane Rosslyn Patten Bella means beautiful Fav.   Kailey-Jane Patten Sanders Favorite.   Kailey-Jane Rosslynn Patten Or Kailey Jane Patten-Sanders

Call her Ella Lynn for short! I have been wracking my brain again about a name.    I need to stop listening to everyone's opinion s and just go with my gut.  This is a good name.  Meeting her will make it easier to decide.   I m pretty sure I love this more than Ellie or Ella May.   Eleanor covers the important meaning and origin for the name.  Ella and Ellie are derived from Eleanor and Lynn is my Grandmother's name.  She was a very spiritual woman strong in her faith.  This would be a nice name for her and it's pretty.   I love the idea of a double barrel southern name.  Although I heard in a Gospel song today the sweetest name I ever heard is Jesus.   So on that note it doesn't totally matter what I name her, but it's still important.

Mommy and I miss you terribly.   We have cried all night longing for you to be here with us.   We are so sorry that we cannot share with you every moment of your youth.   We hope to be a bigger part of your life one day.   Big brother mommy is truely sorry she let you go.  She is sorry for her intense mood swings that caused you to be away from home.   She wants you to know that this is who she is.  She is not ashamed of it.  It causes her to love more deeply for us and all of her family around her.    If people don't get her she doesn't care because she is strong enough to know they are the ones missing out.   She thinks of you always Liam.   She tries not to cry for you in awkward places.  She tries to stay happy and strong in spite of what she truly feels inside.   Mommy does everything for us and that will never change.   She will love us no matter what happe...

I think I have landed on her name being Eleanor May Rosslynn Patten I will call her Ellie-May for short. Ellie-May of Hebrew origin means "God is my light" or "God is my candle." Eleanor of Hebrew origin having the same meaning.  Eleanor being a established name by Eleanor Rossevelt and the Queen of France.   Rosslynn is a beautiful sir name made feminine.    Lynn being dear to me because of my grandmother makes this name even more meaningful.  Ross being her daddy's middle name will show her that she belongs to him and his family as well.  May being the month that her dad and I met in the year 2017.  That gives her name a fun twist. Patten being her last name to show her that she has another heritage on her mother's side.  That both maternal parents carry.  I think this name is beautiful.  It will give her a sense of where she came from.   Which builds confidence in a child to adulthood.   It will ...

Dear God, I am so discouraged!    It seems the whole world is against me unless they need or want something.   My son is out of my home and my daughter is unborn.  Her daddy is absent, but does not want me to find her a forever family.    I cannot go through this again.   I cannot loose another baby.    This is worse than death.  Nobody understands me Lord.   Nobody gets that I can't see my son when he wakes up, or tuck him in at night.    I never get to ask him what he wants for breakfast or tell him have a great day at school.   These are things I miss these are things I can't get back.   I do not want to be a visitor in his life.   I want to be fully present.   No one will let me.  So I have to settle for "it is what it is."   And "I can only do what I can do." But it s not  enough.    I want to be his supermom, but I m...